Trusting God's Promises

More often than not, I doubt God. I am not proud of it, nor do I intentionally allow it to happen, but it does. I write it off as doubting myself, but in doubting myself, I am in turn doubting Him. Without a doubt, I know that it is God's Will and Purpose for me to pursue a career in nursing. He has shown and proven to my doubtful self time and time again, that He has a plan for me that entails me receiving my nursing degree. He has made it possible. He opened the door for me to return to school at the ripe young age of 27. He financially provided the means to return and he worked out all the details. The classes my flesh struggled with, He made it possible for me to pass and in some cases it was nothing short of a miracle. And He didn't often just allow me to slide though, I excelled for His glory and purpose. I finished all the pre-requisites and was accepted into the program. I was one of those chosen out of over 400 applicants. Nothing short of a God thing. So far, I have successfully made it through 4 of 5 of the semesters with His help. This past semester, more than any other, it truly felt impossible. I was so challenged; physically, mentally, and emotionally. My flesh was incapable of covering the material, the content and the requirements. The enemy whispered in my ear, reminding me of my past failures and inequities. The enemy planted the seed of doubt and watered it with his constant pestering. I was reminded of how I've let myself and others down in the past, how I've failed before and how I've been a disappointment. There was no way my flesh was capable of moving forward this past semester. I let God's Promises be clouded by the enemies lies. When it came to the end of the semester and I was so unsure and uncertain of myself and my standing, all I could do was pray. I prayed for God's promises - that He would finish the good works He started in me, that He would prosper me and give me hope and a future. I have stood on Jeremiah 29:11 and Philippians 1:6 through this program and He is ever faithful! Even though I have doubted, He remains constant and faithful! And He Always follows through and fulfills and keeps His promises!